Am I really ready for this? Am I ready to throw everything away for a glimpse of hope that might easily fade away. I’ve never been so confused in my life. My mind is telling one thing and my heart telling me something else, and my actions aren’t going along with either one.

Ugh! This is so fustrating. Why can’t this just be easy? Why can’t fairy tale endings really exist and let everyone live happily ever after?

I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m scared, terrifed actually. I just don’t wanna fall again. At least not so fast. I don’t wanna be back at the bottom when I worked so hard crawling back to the top…life just blows, but yet again I guess nothing comes easy. I just don’t know. The only thing to do is wait it out. We’ll see what comes of it. Whether it be good or bad at least I can say I tried. I gave it one last shot, but this is make it or break it. We’ll see how it ends.